Hello world. That introduction is a little ironic. When you
are learning how to “code” in a new computer language the first exercise in
most books is generate a program that outputs “Hello World” to the screen. This
helps the student familiarize themselves with the basic syntax and structure
for the new programming language.
In a similar way, I need to rebuild myself and continue to
grow. First thing is first: I need to go
back to basics and continue to channel my energy positively. I love writing. It has always felt good and I
think it will be a critical tool to continue my development. So this blog is a
way for me to share my thoughts with anyone.
I suspect that at some point in the future, I will look back
at these blog posts and synthesize its content into something meaningful (the
start of a book perhaps). For now they are just my musings and thoughts in
written form. Some of you may be wondering “what was the catalyst that prompted
you to start this blog?” Great question.
Like all great blogs that are not about photography, travel or cats this one is
about loss. Specifically losing someone you love. In fact, you love them so
much you accept their decision and watch them walk away. More on this later. So for now I’m writing as a form of therapy. I
will attempt to be deliberately concise and include random thoughts from time
to time.
So here is a brief recap (in case you are just tuning in):
I’m JP. A guy. Some may consider me average and others
special. There are a lot of adjectives that can be used to describe me. Common positive
adjectives others have used to describe me include: thoughtful, driven, positive,
hard-working, funny, overweight but in a good way (if there is such a thing).
If I were to liken myself to an inanimate object (because it’s amusing and a
fun game to play…try it out sometime) I would be like glue. I think I join people together and make strong
bonds between them and myself. You can add me to any existing group of people
(or objects) and I will normally improve the dynamics and relationships. It’s
weird, I know.
Start of Random thought
It is my opinion that most guys are pretty much the same. In
fact, only two things make us different from other guys out there. #1 Our
passions; #2 Our insecurities.
Girls are like onions, parfaits
and ogres: They have layers.
Anyways, back to the recap
End of Random thought
I’m always enjoying life to the fullest. I like to live life efficiently. I have very
little time for waste. I don’t settle. As a result, I spent my dating years
looking for the perfect girl and never really finding her. A lot girls came
close but I wanted someone I could admire. That’s what is important to me. I
want to find a life companion I can admire. Here is why I think it is important: because it’s
a good measure of how much that person has developed in their life. You admire
someone because they are good at certain things and that probably comes from
working hard at it. With admiration also comes respect and attention (both very
important elements in a successful relationship). Other important elements like
good communication and trust are developed over time.
I found a seemingly perfect girl that I admired and spent the last 8
years in her company because I knew that my life was better with her in it. I knew I had the potential to be a great life
companion and treat her the way she deserves to be treated. So now, I needed to
convince her that her life could be better with me in it. And for 8 years, every
day, I attempted to prove to her that I was worthy of her attention, company
and love.
